Full to Bursting

On occasion, when I see something artistic and wonderful, I feel this strange compulsion to create something artistic and wonderful of my own. Rarely does this go anywhere, partly because I'm inconstant and the feeling passes, partly because I'm secretly not that artistic (like, at all) most days, and largely because I get so overwhelmed with the need to act on my impulse that I end up doing nothing except staring slack-jawed at whatever it was that brought this feeling on in the first place.

Have I written about this before? I think maybe I have, but I'm too lazy to look back through my handful of blog posts to verify. Oh well, here it is again.

Maybe someday I'll make something so beautiful that it'll purge all this longing. Somehow, though, I doubt Nature would allow the void that would be left behind to exist for long before refilling it with ever-stronger desire. Perhaps that's part of what keeps me going, an indelible element of my identity. A blessing and a curse, I suppose.

By the way, check out the band Discovery, if you haven't already. They're a side project of Ra Ra Riot and Vampire Weekend. They're weird, but strangely awesome. You'll see what I mean. Thanks, Callen McLaughlin and Jeff Olson, for turning me on to them.